Thursday 4 July 2013

Be Positive.

When I asked myself 'How Do I Survived Now' is by always be positive. I used to remind myself that my blood type is Be Positive instead of O. Hihi.

When I send a positive message to myself, everything will be fine Insya Allah. There is NO SECRET or POWERFUL SPELLS to stay strong and survive except the power of mind setting..

Always be positive, think positive, talk positive and stay with positive people. Arent easy but worth trying in order to stay strong and have a great relationship with someone who really love.

LDR as a bf gf, fiance fiancee and husband wifey is totally different. The feelings, the pains, the true love, the trust, the most important thing is you will definitely miss your other half (husband and wifey only). Hihi..

Never saying that marriage is all about sex! Sex is part of them or a piece of them. The rest is all about a new family, a new responsibilities and get to know each others well. Bad things and good things. 

What ever happens between us, we sit and discuss. We manage to handle everything so far professionally. Well actually most of the time via skype, tango, whatsapp, wechat.. Well, it works for us. Alhamdulillah.

Thus, Be Positive. Be Positive. Be Positive.

Thank you, Husband. I ❤ You so much.


Thursday 27 June 2013

Once Upon A Time.

Dear You,

I met my husband not officially on 2003 when I was 18. Young, innocent and virgin. Why i said not officially because we were actually a classmate in matriculation college.

One year in matriculation college, I cant remember him much except I know that his name is Ahmad Fauzan. If I am not mistaken he always sit at the back with his friends.

5 years later, in 2008 we met again as 'a friend'. Not much changes, I am still young at the age of 23 and still virgin. Well, I just finished my study and pursued my post graduate program in UiTM.

Things that we loved the most is we discoverd so many hidden stories about us. We never realized that we were always went to the same group, class, place etc etc. Allah did plan the best yet we cant see it at that time.

In few months we get to know each others. Everything is very fast! End up we agreed to go to the serious relationship. The next level means, the challenges is super extreme! Well, an army girlfriend what you expecting it will be.

Dating every weekend, watching movies on friday eve, sms and have a phone call 24/7? This is not a heaven. 

Being an army girlfriend means, I must understand and agree that I am not his no. 1. His duty, his officers, his military operation, his roll call, his bla bla bla is the priority. Like or not, I must obey the rules.

Long distance relationship, independent, being alone is the keyword of the rest of my life. When my friends asked my opinions, I would say that it was a learning process to live with him. Not much worries just go with the flow.

Difficulties? Sometime, yes it have. Depends on how I managed them. He trained me physically and mentally almost 5 years before we are getting married.

I walked alone most of the times, I hold my own hands when I worried or afraid of something, I lost contact with him 2 weeks and I cried every nights, I cant live w/out my mobile phone just to wait for one sms from him everyday.

Sounds tough? No lah. This is the bread and butter of my life. I pray hard for him, for us and for my strength. When I see myself, everytime I feel hard and bad, I should see his mother. A strong women.



Sunday 16 June 2013

Strong Heart

Dear You,

To let him go far thousands miles away arent easy. I dont have right to say NO. This is the biggest challenge that we have to go through and survive. Hurm..

I cant even think what would I do a weekend w/out him, I cant imagine my Friday eve and Monday morning routines w/out him (such as excited waiting for him a night before he come home and monday blues wake up so early in the morning and let him go for work) and many more.

When we are in LDR, there are no such things of weekend routines anymore. Thousands miles away, separated by the oceans, within a year we only managed to see each others for a month only. The rest of 11 months, we communicated via internet. Whatsapp, wechat, tango, skype, fb.. That's it.

I would say that, family, in laws, friends are the most important peeps in my life when my husband is away. Moral supports and advices, chilling with family and friends are things that makes me stronger. I rarely sit alone doing nothing to avoid me down.

Well, at least playing scrabble or candy crush can fulfill my free time. HAHA!


3 years and half of friendship

Dear You,

This is the longest period of 'steady relationship' that I ever been go through, 3 years and half. I am so grateful, with the patience and courage finally we found the date for our engagement.

Fine. 3 years and half period of friendship have so many stories to remember. Ups and downs, laughs and tears, sadness and happiness, etc. I would say that, these are part and parcels of our lifes.

Well, apart so many things there are 1 thing that I always remember for the rest of my life is 'we never declared ourself as bf-gf' like any other couples. We used to be friends, love birds and yes, proposed by him to be his wife. 

I am not sure, how confident I am during that time and YES when I become his friends I rejected my ex (break up before I met my husband) and closed my heart to any other guys. I said to myself that he is 'maybe' the one otherwise NO.

Luckily we have a chemistry to get serious in our relationship. No spesific date and romantic proposal to be his gf. We skip that part already. HAHA!

I think I may blog my experiences on how he trained me mentally and physically to ensure that I prepared enough to live in LDR. I warned you, arent easy to be me.

Just chill-lah! Wink.


Saturday 15 June 2013


Dear You,

Life is too short to waste. When 'we' agree to get married, there is one thing pop out from my mind.. 'The Power of Mind Setting'. He trained me for 3 years and half of friendship, 11 months of engagement and untill then we get married. 

I believed that I cant easily saying that numbers are close enaugh to fit me into LDR. However, I mentally and physically prepared for any uncircumstances. Well said, this is what I choose, what I want and what I wanted to be..

I Eat.

I Pray.
and I Love.

Living as a newly wedding is always showered by joys and happiness. One year of marriage I consider as newly wedding because we are LDR. Rarely seen each others, weekend husband and wife, live independently and etc.

That's why, 'The Power of Mind Setting' is really important to let me enjoy my marriage without any complains.